There is not a day that goes past that I don't miss having my kids with me all the time. All I ever wanted out of life was to raise my kids and spend every possible moment with them. To have a sense of family, to watch them grow up.
That has all been taken away from me. In the past year I have felt I have missed so much of there lives. Why, why has this been taken away from me. I asked to work thing out but she refused.
People say that you should not stay together because of the kids.....I think that is wrong. I think that you should work on fixing things because of the kids.
I wonder if the feeling of being cheat, the resentment ever goes away. I try so hard to get over it, but I just can't shake the feeling. the feeling of being cheated out of the only think I ever wanted in life.
When I have the kids every other weekend I spend every moment with them. I have put my own personal life on hold to spend time with them.
They say that time heal all wounds but I can't see time ever healing this, if anything time seems to make it worse. When every I see my "X" all I can think is "....you have taken from me the only thing I ever wanted in life, you have stolen time I could have with my kids and I can never get that back...." I don't think I will ever stop feeling that.
