Hello
There has been a very steady change in the relationship I have with my kids. The actually physical distance between us has grown because they are off at school but the emotional distance has gotten smaller.
We talk more often, they call/text me now as much as I call/text them. Up until a few months ago it was always me reaching out to them.
I noticed this change and I started to question why, what had changed, why were we closer when we were further apart.
Once again, it comes down to me growing and changing.
I had finally gained the self confidence to be myself, to stop constantly wondering if the kids were okay. I stopped the constantly asking if they were okay and if I could do anything for them. I stopping worrying that if I was myself that I would some how piss them off.
I had to stop worrying about doing or saying something wrong, that if I did some how I would stop being there Dad.
Once I went back to being the person/Dad I was before things started to normalise between the kids and I. I stopped walking on egg shells around them. I was okay to laugh again, joke with them and just be myself.
A simple answer but so hard to do.
